[Music]
[音乐]
he
他在
fore
前面
spe
在前面
[Applause]
[掌声]
spee
I'm my a good son my bad son I don't
我是我的好儿子我的坏儿子我不
know
知道
those
那些
for
speech
演讲前面的前面
spee spee
快快快快
that
foree get
foree 明白
this
了
and I'm your mother yes
，我是你的母亲，是的，
sir
先生
foree
foree
速度，
okay don't you just go to see how you
好吧，你不去看看你怎么样吗，
are your mother left a couple of
你妈妈给我们留下了几条
messages us
消息
please
请
hell
地狱
演讲
速度
forry
forry
aboute
aboute
[ 音乐]
for I think I think I'm a good
因为我想我认为我是一个好
son depends on when you ask
儿子取决于当你问
me which day or which
我哪一天或哪
year in a brand new car and fuing shit's
一年开着一辆全新的汽车时，一切都结束了，
all over but no
但不是
kiding these are my student films with
开玩笑，这些是我的学生电影，
actors playing me and my
演员们扮演我， 我的
parents forget 7 months ago you I made
父母7个月前忘记了你 我在
these films while I was growing up and I
成长的过程中拍了这些电影，我
was very messed
很
up my parents watched me get more and
混乱 我的父母看着我变得越来越
more angry and depressed I really scared
生气和沮丧 我真的很害怕
them really upset them for
他们真的让他们心烦了很多
years but eventually I I pulled myself
年但最终我还是把自己拉了回来
together and when I started making this
当我开始制作这部
documentary I just gotten engaged to be
纪录片时，我刚刚订婚
married they didn't have much reason to
结婚，他们没有太多理由
to worry
担心
anymore little bit water little bit
再一点点水一点点
water
水
there the SAU is there you want some
那里SAU在那里你想要
more I have salad fresh salad
更多 我有沙拉 新鲜的沙拉
some
一些
came here you're not hungry if you're
来到这里 你不饿 如果你
hungry you going to eat I'm sure of
饿了 你会吃 我确信
it don't worry about want to have me
它 不要担心 想要我
long around you you want to
长时间在你身边 你想要
suffer you want to suffer a long time
受苦 你想要长期受苦 时间
she's tell me if it's bad tell me going
她告诉我，如果情况不好，告诉我
to slap him okay I'll tell you he's
要打他一巴掌，好吧，我会告诉你，他有点
screaming a little bit okay but that's
尖叫，好吧，但这
mean
nothing because you need
没什么意义，因为你需要
person it's important loneliness is not
有人，这很重要，孤独并不
easy is the worst sickness they said
容易，他们说，这是最严重的疾病
that the worst sickness is go alone and
最糟糕的是一个人去，
you don't feel
你感觉
good
不好，
I think think that's an interesting
我认为这是一件有趣的
thing this one piece will make 52 layers
事情，这件作品可以让 52 层
watch on mobile devices or the big
在移动设备或大屏幕上观看，
screen all for free no subscription
全部免费，无需订阅，
required your mother came up with this
你妈妈想出了这个，
and I said that's
我说那是
uh a needle for
一根
drugs he say fell off Ton's
毒品针，他说是从托恩的口袋里掉下来的，
pocket
you broke down saying that you were not
你崩溃了，说你不是
a loser you were going somewhere in life
一个失败者，你要去生活的某个地方
and uh and I said nobody told you that
，呃，我说没有人告诉你
you were a
你是一个
loser and everything was going to be
失败者，一切都会
okay and
好起来的
uh you you started
呃，你开始
crying
哭泣，
it was my worst nightmare I'm finding
这是我最糟糕的噩梦，我发现了
that stuff I felt awful they saw
那些东西，我感觉很糟糕，他们看到
that I knew I was hurting myself but I
我知道我在伤害自己，但我
didn't really
并
care I was just trying to cope with life
不在乎，我只是在努力应对生活
and the only thing that worked was drugs
和唯一的 有效的方法是药物
I was just trying to feel better I was
我只是想让自己感觉好一点 我
just trying to feel
只是想让自己感觉
good you're problem is that you are so
良好 你的问题是你太
immature that you can't handle life out
不成熟了，你无法应对外面的生活，
there and you're going to die you're a
你会死的，你是一个
very sick man there's going to have to
非常 病人，
be a drastic change in your whole
你的整个性格必须发生巨大的变化，
personality your whole
你的整个
being I went away to
存在，我去
rehab and uh I didn't come back to
康复中心了，呃，我已经很长时间没有回到
Montreal for a really long
蒙特利尔了，演讲
time
fore fore
前
演讲，
I didn't blame them for not trusting me
我并没有责怪他们不这样做。 信任我，
but I really needed help dealing with
但我真的需要帮助来对付
her so I set up a meeting with my
她，所以我和我的成瘾顾问开了一次会，
addictions counselor I remember spending
我记得我花了很多
time trying to to calm
时间试图让
her she came out with like what would
她平静下来，她说
you do how would you
你会做什么，你会怎么
live she was still trying to take care
生活，她仍在努力照顾
of you and treating you somewhat like a
你，对待你有点像个
child
孩子，
she felt that you could not take care of
她觉得你不能照顾
yourself it was evident to me that that
自己，对我来说很明显，他需要对
there need to be a attachment to the
distance of the
家庭的距离有一种依恋，
family he needed to get
他需要
unhooked
speeech for years my my mom would say
多年来摆脱前言[音乐]演讲 我妈妈会说
when are you coming home when are you
你什么时候回家你什么时候
coming home I said I would say I'm never
回家我说我会说我永远不会
coming home you know things are going
回家你知道
fine over here I'm I'm never coming
这里一切都很好我我终于永远不会回家
home finally 10 years later I was
十年后我在
looking for a job and I ended up coming
寻找 为了一份工作，我最终很好地回家了
[Laughter]
（笑声），
home well he does what I tell him to do
他做了我告诉他做的事，
for I felt that fail as a
因为我觉得作为一个
parent I should have been able to
父母失败了，我现在应该能够
detect now why I didn't
发现为什么我没有这样做，
I don't know myself you never thought so
我不了解自己，你从来没有 所以
how can you punish yourself it's not
你怎么能惩罚自己这不是
that I'm punishing myself every parent
我在惩罚自己每个父母都
should do that should look through your
应该这样做应该检查一下你
sons or your daughter's room to see if
儿子或你女儿的房间，看看是否
there's anything going back yeah but
有什么可以回去的，是的，但
they were hidden hidden where they were
他们隐藏在他们
all over all
到处都是的地方
over they were not
没有
hidden
隐藏
to tell you the truth at one point I
告诉你真相 在某一时刻我
thought of uh you know taking my car and
想到呃你知道开着我的车
jump over the
跳过河
river
really I felt that bad me not feel that
真的我感觉很糟糕我没有感觉
so did you tell her that you want to
所以你告诉她你想从
jump off the
bridge
桥上跳下去
what went through my
mind at one point I didn't care about
在某一时刻我脑子里闪过什么我不关心
neighborhood or
邻居或
anybody look can take
任何人看起来都可以
care uh almond cashew butter and some
照顾呃杏仁腰果黄油和一些
vegetables
蔬菜
maybe kind
也许是善良的
vegetables you mind walking Rubble I
蔬菜你介意走路瓦砾我
just really got to get some stuff done I
只是真的需要完成一些事情我
I'll go get groceries
我会去拿 稍后去杂货店
later
[音乐]，
fore don't
不要
worry don't
担心，不要
worry
快点，好吧，
okay
是
yeah I think you should
的，我想你应该
go you tired of this documentary of me
走吧，你厌倦了我的这部纪录片，
this film
这部电影
no I think it's great go I'll come in a
不，我认为这很棒，走吧，我会 几周后过来，
few weeks
this is the old Greek neighborhood from
这是
my parents' first
我父母第一套
apartment they got married just a few
公寓的老希腊社区，他们在几个
blocks over really
街区外结婚了，真的
yeah
是的，
she told me that she was supposed to go
她告诉我她应该
to Greece she was supposed to leave so I
去希腊，她应该离开，所以我
decided to speak
决定不说话
to no
matter whatever happen happened that's
不管发生什么，那就是
it and mother says they were really
母亲说他们
happy for the first year or so of their
在结婚的第一年左右真的很幸福，
marriage she says they were really poor
她说他们真的很穷，
but they were laughing all the time and
但他们一直在笑，
I came along pretty
我很快就跟上来了，
quickly but then they started fighting
但后来他们开始吵架
about everything money where to live had
一切都有钱，住的地方有
a parent
父母，
everything and in the middle of all this
一切都在这一切之中，
my mom had a
我妈妈流产了
miscarriage and then she couldn't have
，然后她不能再有
any more
kids
I don't think they ever really got over
我认为他们没有真正度过
those first few years especially my
最初的几年，尤其是我的
mom I felt like I was her only
妈妈，我觉得我是她唯一的
friend and then I grew up made some
朋友，然后我长大了，拍了一些
films about
关于
them and I
他们的电影，我
left
离开了
spee foreign
spee 外国外国
foreign
speech speech
演讲演讲
外国演讲
fore that's your
这是你的
inheritance
遗产
the last time I worked here was in
我最后一次在这里工作是在
1957 a few months before I left for
1957 年，就在我动身前往加拿大的前几个月，
Canada I came with my father and my
我和我的父亲和母亲一起来，我们
mother
first time we came back only my my
第一次回来时，只有我的母亲，呃，
mother was uh
alive every time we we left to go back
每次我们离开时都还活着
to Canada she would say that you won't
加拿大，她会说你不会
see me
again she repeated that about six seven
再见到我了，当她去世时，她重复了大约六七
times by the time she passed away
次
这个
外国的
speee
斯佩斯佩
he my
他我的
gooders he
好人他
为
斯佩斯
外国
he came it
他来了它
spee it
佩斯佩它
foreign spee
外国 在
演讲前的演讲
I ran away from my family for for a lot
我逃离了我的家人很多
of
years I even managed to to make a movie
年 我什至
once that had nothing to do with my
曾经拍过一部与我的
family at
家人完全无关的电影
all uh it was about a guy who who seemed
呃这是关于一个似乎
to have no
family
家庭的人
I was about a guy who got clean off
我讲的是一个戒掉
drugs but he was alone not many friends
毒品的人，但他很孤独，朋友不多，
really no
真的没有
family it was ambitious people got
家庭，雄心勃勃，人们很
excited it cost a bit of money had good
兴奋，花了一点钱，有很好的
actors in it and everything being up
演员，
here it's done a bit of a job to your
这里的一切都做得很好。 一份工作对你的
head I apologize about
头脑来说，我为
[音乐]道歉，
that but it it didn't go anywhere it
但它没有去任何地方，它
just kind of died along with four years
只是随着四年的工作一起消亡了
of work
I had a lot of trouble moving
我在继续前进时遇到了很多困难，
on I was uh embarrassed broke angry
我是 呃，尴尬，爆发，愤怒，
depressed and
沮丧，
alone
孤独，
like the man in my film I I retreated to
就像我电影中的那个人一样，我退回到
a cabin in the woods and started
树林里的小屋里，开始
thinking about things too
想太多的事情，
much
I started using drugs to feel free to be
我开始吸毒，以便能够自由地
able to just enjoy my life to look at
享受生活，用
the world with kind eyes to be
友善的眼光看待世界 眼睛要
free
自由，
I don't really know what happened
我真的不知道发生了什么，
happened
exactly all I can really say is I guess
我真正能说的是，我猜有
something stopped
什么东西阻止了
me I did our jobs and started being
我，我做了我们的工作，再次开始和
around people
人们在一起，
again but when I met Natalie is when
但当我遇到娜塔莉时，
things really changed oh God it's
事情真的发生了变化哦上帝
beautiful
think I might start
想想我可能会开始
crying that that's when I really
哭泣，那真是太好了，那是我真正
committed to being
致力于
alive I asked her to marry me within
活着的时候，我向她求婚，在几个月内嫁给我，
months unbelievably she said
令人难以置信的是，她说
yes this is when we told my parents
是的，就在我们告诉我父母
about the
关于[
音乐]
engagement
订婚的事情
expected you to Serve
希望你能
Yourself whenever I come out there on on
每当我来到
the little deck there and she just
那里的小甲板上时，请为自己服务，她就会
lights
亮
up which is always a good feeling you
起来，这总是一种很好的感觉，你
know hello my dog what did she call me
知道，你好，我的狗，她今天叫我什么，
today
Dolly it's a long story I have not da
多莉，这是一个很长的故事，我已经没有很长很
long long years now I have one come to
长的时间了，现在我有 一个人醒过来，
and then she took my hands across the
然后她把我的手放在桌子上，
table and she said I love you like my
她说我爱你就像我
own daughter Natalie I I I love you so
自己的女儿娜塔莉一样，我我非常爱你，
much and I actually started I got te
我实际上开始了，
which I don't usually when she says
当她说
that I to
我要
place I think I I think I needed your
放置我想的地方时，我通常不会这样做 我我想我需要你
mother my mother always said she had too
妈妈，我妈妈总是说她有
much love so glad you're catching
太多的爱，所以很高兴你能
catching some of that God a thought the
抓住一些上帝的思想，
truth
on the
camouflage big
迷彩上的真相大
[笑声]
big
大
前辈
速度外国
spee that's an
快看，这是一个
man this
男人这个
fore
[鼓掌]
快看
好吧，
快看，外国
fore your aunt came to invite your
之前你阿姨来邀请你
mother to go out with the ladies and
妈妈和女士们出去，
your mother said she can't because she
你妈妈说她可以' 因为她
has take care of the
已经照顾
kids fore
好孩子们了
speee
spee
[Music]
spee thank
spee 谢谢
you
你
wow can I ring this no a don't ring it I
哇，我可以按响这个吗？不，不要按响它，我
know it's tempting I was tempted too
知道这很诱人，我也很诱惑，
but
但
for I was embarrassed and I felt bad for
因为我很尴尬，我感觉很糟糕 对于
Natalie it was a throwback to when I was
娜塔莉来说，这是我小时候的回忆，
a kid this is what happens when the
这就是
three of us live together and we just
我们三个住在一起时发生的事情，我们只是
fed off each other it got worse and
互相喂食，情况变得越来越糟，
worse call back I'm telling you
回电我告诉你，
call same it's the same
打电话是一样的，这是同样的
thinge spe
事情，
特别是 外国语
斯佩
Tony and in my family this kind of
托尼和我家里的这种
fighting ended
争吵
badly like it ended in divorce I
以离婚告终，我
know I really love your parents but
知道我真的很爱你的父母，但
sometimes I wonder why they stayed
有时我想知道他们为什么还
together never wonder that no not
在一起 不要奇怪，不，不是
really it was actually a lot worse when
真的，在我成长的过程中，情况实际上更糟，
I was growing up my mom and I thought a
我妈妈，我想
lot worse why the only way that I felt
更糟，为什么我
like I could detach myself was to get
觉得我可以脱离自己的唯一方法就是
angry and to to block whatever was
生气并阻止任何向
coming at
me the only thing that worked was
我袭来的事情 唯一有效的就是
harshness and you get tired of doing
严厉，你厌倦了这样做，
that you feel shitty you feel like a bad
你感觉很糟糕，你觉得自己是一个坏
humor human
幽默的
being so what takes care of being a
人，所以要让自己成为一个
shitthead feeling like a shitthead is
混蛋，感觉自己像个混蛋，就是
drinking drugs you
喝毒品，你
know you still want to marry
知道你仍然想嫁给
me no
我
less
why
为什么
surprise
惊喜
you're bra bra
你是胸罩 胸罩
Brae
Brae
I need your help for a
我需要你的帮助一
sec you got it yeah hang
秒钟，你明白了，坚持
on Duck okay so we will introduce once
住，好吧，所以我们将介绍 一次
and then next time we we had another D
，然后下次我们有另一个D，
so we we saw each other again and didn't
所以我们再次见到对方，没有
click
点击
anything kiss please and good
任何吻请好
one
一个
unfortunately the Boby showed cancer
不幸的是，鲍比患上了
from the stomach and it's spread already
胃部癌症，而且已经扩散了，
we can't cure it we could control it
我们无法治愈它，我们可以
with keep chapy we could try to make it
通过保持 Chapy 来控制它，我们可以尝试让它变
smaller we could try to prevent you know
小，我们可以尝试防止你知道
complications from it right if he
并发症，如果他正确的话
responds well to chemotherapy his
对化疗反应良好，
prognosis will be okay if he doesn't
如果他
normally these cancers grow rapidly and
正常情况下没有这些癌症迅速生长，并
within 6 months it kills the
在 6 个月内杀死
person I'm looking for uh try to buy
我正在寻找的 [音乐] 人，他的预后会很好，呃，尝试购买
some more Christmas lights to put them
更多圣诞彩灯，把它们放在
at my parents place because they need a
我父母的地方 因为他们现在需要一个
nice cheery house right
漂亮而愉快的房子
now I think my mother will like
我想我妈妈会喜欢
this can I'm curious I am here I got be
这个我很好奇我在这里我必须在这里
here
out it's exactly the
出来这正是
same okay
同样好的
好的
在
spee do
速度之前的演讲
spee good
luck
祝你好运
I never thought I live you know to see
我从来没想过我活着你知道看到
the
这
day I wasn't thinking about
一天我没有考虑
weddings your wedding one of the
婚礼你的婚礼是
happiest days of my life pictures now
我一生中最幸福的日子之一照片现在
there will be too many I guess you take
会有太多我猜你拍了
a big picture you can take a everyone
一个大 你可以拍一张照片，每个人
will be very far away so deps
都会很远，所以
right we got to put them somewhere okay
我们必须把它们放在某个地方，好吧，
but the americ the
但是
Americans that's beautiful okay okay but
美国人，美国人很漂亮，好吧，但是
this dress little bit tight here we ask
这件衣服有点紧，我们要求
her to open a little bit Mommy is
她打开一点，妈妈正在
worrying about everything says you worry
担心一切 说你
about everything well she that's what
担心一切，她就是这么
she says but she's worrying more than I
说的，但她比我更担心哦
do really oh
[音乐]是的，
yes you
drinking now eight you lean on it and
现在喝八点，你靠着它，
then we're going to go backwards back so
然后我们要倒退，
so Christopher is teaching us a few
所以克里斯托弗正在教学 我们几个
Greek dance steps I don't remember
希腊舞步 我不记得
anything anymore getting married in five
任何事情了 五
weeks dance anyway you
周后结婚 无论如何你
want
要
slowly yeah you bend
慢慢跳舞 是的你弯曲
way you're not supposed to say
方式你不应该说
thate
那是
因为
I want you to try
我想让你尝试
marijuana I don't want to smoke I can't
大麻我不想吸烟我不能
smoke we're going to use a vaporizer
吸烟我们要使用蒸发器
it's not like smoking cigarettes or
它不像吸烟或
smoking anything else but it could help
吸其他任何东西但它可以帮助
you it could help you have an appetite
你它可以帮助你有胃口
you might help me
你可能会帮助我
是的
okay yeah
好吧，是的，
so a big
太
suck I'm not seeing anything come out
糟糕了，我没有看到任何结果，
you're not doing it right what you what
你没有做正确的事情，你
you want to
想做的事情，
do that's sorry
很抱歉
that this is good
这很好，
H really good
真的很好，
yeah he looks
是的，他看起来
good it's good the way he
很好，他的方式很好
going good how are you oh my good my
好你好吗哦我的好我的
好
yeah ask we're coming yes of course okay
耶问我们来了是的当然好吧
Nicholas it's Tony hi Nicholas is
尼古拉斯是托尼嗨尼古拉斯正在
drawing a picture oh good delicious she
画一幅画哦很好美味她
made more
yesterday
昨天做了更多
so is it is it unpleasant or is it no no
所以是它不愉快还是它不不
it's not unpleasant well you can
它是 不错，你可以
experiment with it on your
自己尝试一下，
own huh well you still have to deal with
嗯，你仍然需要处理
the issue of not enjoying food and this
不喜欢食物的问题，这
is going to help you this this that's a
会对你有所帮助，这是一个
universal side
普遍的
effect I mean old people have trouble
副作用，我的意思是老年人对此有困难，
with this they're they're not used to
他们是 他们不习惯这种让人
the feeling like it's disorienting yeah
迷失方向的感觉是的，
but he's been drunk before yeah but it's
但他以前喝醉过，是的，但这不是
not the same thing so that you just have
同一回事，所以你必须
to accept it sweetheart he don't like
接受它，亲爱的，他不喜欢
it [\h__\h] doesn't he want to
他妈的他不想
live so wrapped up in his own [\h__\h]
活下去吗？ 所以
[\h__\h] all I can do is offer you know
我能做的就是让你知道
what I can to her am I going to yell at
我能为她做什么 我要对
an old man
一个老人大喊大叫
[音乐]是
的所以
so good
luck good
祝你好运好
好运
Tony in the last few days I haven't felt
托尼 在过去的几天里，我
excited or happy about getting married
对结婚没有感到兴奋或高兴，
it's all kind of felt like sort of it
感觉有点
felt
heavy I felt weak shaky clammy cold hot
沉重，感觉虚弱，摇摇晃晃，湿冷，热，
like I having allergic reaction
就像我对你有过敏反应，
to
you I think it was a purge I think I had
我认为这是一次净化，我想我
let thoughts build up and build up and
让思绪不断积聚，积聚，
build up and all I could think about was
积聚，我所能想到的就是
what if what if I'm in a situation where
如果我
I'm trapped and
陷入困境并且
unhappy okay I guess I just kind of feel
不快乐怎么办？好吧，我想我只是
like like I've lost
觉得我失去了
I I can I can listen up to a point but I
我可以，我可以听到一点，但我
don't know how much of this I can hear
不知道我能听到多少，
know you should be talking to somebody
知道你应该和其他人谈论
else about this
这些
stuff and I know you're tired of the
东西，我知道你厌倦了这部
film and filming all the time I know
电影和一直拍摄我 知道
that I just I'm
我只是我
just a lot of things are bothering me
只是有很多事情困扰着我
and I don't have you know and I don't
，我没有你知道，我
have time to sort of relax and are you
没有时间放松，你在
listening to me I'm listening to you I'm
听我说话吗？我在听你说话我 我
abolutely listening to watching my
绝对在听，看着我的
road I just want to have a day of
路，我只想度过无所事事的一天，
nothing I'm not worrying about things
我不担心事情，我不做
I'm not doing anything who's what do you
任何事情，你是什么意思，
mean not worrying about things like what
不担心诸如
do you mean to like a day off okay you
你想要休息一天的意思之类的事情，好吗？ 你
have this expectation that there's like
有这样的期望，就像
a weekend coming up we have to figure
一个周末即将到来，我们必须
out like when we have we have time to do
弄清楚，当我们有时间做
stuff I don't understand what you meant
事情时，我不明白你所说的
by a day off I you met day away from the
休息一天是什么意思，我当然是在电影结束后的一天认识的，
film of course we're not filming after
我们当然是这样的。
after no I mean a day off like you know
我的意思是休息一天，就像你知道的那样，
and I would love a day that I could like
我希望有一天
that you and I could spend together
你和我可以一起
doing fun
做有趣的
stuff
事情
sure
当然
ready is getting Mar the
准备好让Mar
[ 掌声]
man where why why don't you sit down now
伙计，你为什么不坐下来，
I'm going to go wait in Lon to get you
我要去隆等你给你
food no no I I'll go you're sitting
食物，不，不，我会去，你
down
from Tony I need you to listen to me I
从托尼那里坐下来，我需要你听我说，我
just need you to listen I'm
只需要 你听我在
listening it's better for me to tell you
听，我最好告诉你我的感受，让你
how I feel have you listen to it and go
听听，然后好吧，
okay that sucks and then I feel better I
这很糟糕，然后我感觉好多了，我
don't why can barely function when I
不知道为什么当我的
have like Spirit drained out of me I'm
精神从我身上耗尽时几乎无法工作我 我正在
draining your spirit out of you it's my
耗尽你的精神，这是我
talk about it to somebody else
向别人谈论这件事，
ventilated I'm just talking I'm
我只是在说话，我在
expressing myself I'm not
表达自己，我不是
yelling
大喊大叫，
if we have kids one
如果有一天我们有了孩子，
day I won't have that going on around
我就不会再发生这种事了
them that anger and stress and [\h__\h]
他们的愤怒、压力和废话
I
won't it was a bad fight it was things
不会的，这是一场糟糕的战斗，事情
turned bad really
fast I'm still I'm still kind of stunned
很快就变得很糟糕，我仍然对你大喊大叫的纯粹
by the sheer unpleasantness of it you
不愉快感到震惊，
were yelling
I mean how bad was it a lot of yelling I
我的意思是，这有多糟糕 我大喊大叫 我确实
did I did lose my temper a bit all right
有点发脾气
well as your best man I advise you to
好吧 作为你的伴郎 我建议你
make
编好
up never let me alone never leave me
永远不要让我独自一人 永远不要让我
alone God never leave me alone nothing
独自一人 上帝永远不要让我独自一人 没有
remember that you pray in be good F you
记住你祈祷要好 F 你
知道，
yeah like
是的，就像
that you don't have to be
这样，你不必
afraid you in good
害怕你在良好的
hands Tony is good heart person he's
照顾托尼是一个好心人他很
nervous I agree one minute he upset but
紧张我同意一分钟他心烦意乱但
after after okay if it's mad you can
之后好吧如果生气你会
find it you're right forget about you
发现它你是对的忘记你
you go soft around you find the right if
你走 周围柔软，你找到合适的人 如果
you go around around you find the
你四处走动，你找到
right everybody needs a little bit relax
合适的人 每个人都需要放松一点
I myself I I like to go a little bit
我自己 我我喜欢
relaxing she said she she wouldn't want
放松一点 她说她不希望
our kids to see me like
我们的孩子看到我这样
I started thinking about
我开始考虑
kids and I don't know about that I don't
孩子们，我不知道，我不
know about
that who's going to have time for
谁会有时间照顾
kids I mean seriously we are we dreaming
孩子，我是说真的，我们在做梦
Am I Dreaming am I
吗，我在做梦吗，我
diluted I'm taking care of my parents
被稀释了，我正在照顾我的父母，
now this is where this is where it's
这就是这里 听
going listen man nothing's going
着，伙计，现在什么都没有发生，
anywhere right now this is all it's all
这就是一切，都是
far away stuff I know look you don't
遥远的事情，我知道，看你不
know when that's going to happen or when
知道什么时候会发生，或者什么时候会
anything's going to happen so take it
发生什么，所以放轻松
easy
some people think think of death and
有些人认为想到了死亡
they get panic but I
他们会感到恐慌，但我
don't I
不会，
don't as long as I leave you
只要我把你抛
behind
在身后，我就不会
you're still at work yep you're doing
你还在工作，是的，你做得
all
right I stay here as late as I can
很好，我呆在这里，尽可能晚地
working doing whatever I can I go to the
工作，尽我所能 去
new house basically just to sleep why I
新房子基本上只是为了睡觉为什么我
don't want to have any more fights I
不想再打架我
don't trust myself right now I mean
现在不相信自己我的意思是
she's not the one who yells it's me
她不是那个大喊大叫的是我的人
right I go off I escalate things okay
我走了我把事情升级了好吧
but you don't want to make things worse
但你不 不想让事情变得更糟
I need to get work done man what can I
我需要完成工作伙计我能
say maybe you shouldn't be working on
说什么也许你现在不应该拍
the film right
now do you still talk to your sponsor at
你还在和你的赞助商说话吗
all are you talking to
你在和
therapist
治疗师说话吗
I love
我爱
you I love
你我 爱
you my daughter oh you girl what's
你我的女儿哦你女孩有什么
good you're
好你没事
you have to M so you
你必须M所以你
cry I cook nice for you don't cry go e
哭了我为你做饭很好不要哭去
now don't cry
现在不要哭
M no sweetheart I have one daughter now
M不亲爱的我有一个女儿现在
don't have other butter okay please
没有其他黄油 好吧，请
don't cry don't
不要哭，不要
cry don't cry sweet I want you to stay
哭，不要哭，亲爱的，我希望你
strong and healthy with my son all your
和我的儿子一生都保持坚强和健康，
lives
that's
what don't cry I know sometime need to
不要哭，我知道有时需要
cry I cry myself I going die too much I
哭，我自己哭，我会死得太多我
going to die I want to die so but after
快要死了我想死所以但
change mind says no I'm not going to die
改变主意后说不我不会死
I don't want to
我不想死
die yes okay f is
是的好吧f已经
ready
准备好
emotional
情感
you nothing okay
你什么都
好吧好吧
好吧
she came funeral
她昨天参加了葬礼
yesterday she told me last week she said
她告诉 上周我她说
she she felt like I've been angry at her
她觉得我已经生她的气好
for weeks and it's
几个星期了，和
true be terrible to live to to be living
with somebody that he feels angry at you
一个他一直对你生气的人住在一起真的很糟糕，
all the
time see I understood what you
我明白你
said
说的
haircut
发型
what you laugh laugh laugh
你们笑什么，笑笑，
太好了，
you guys take that stuff
你们先把那些东西拿走，把这些
first that stuff over
东西
there putting this in the back of the
放在卡车后面，
truck no we're going to take those in
不，我们要把它们放在
the car so you can move those thank
车里，这样你们就可以移动它们，谢谢，
there was a great day when she wanted to
这是她想要的美好的一天
go to for a picnic Beaver Lake so we
去海狸湖野餐所以我们
went for for a picnic at Beaver
去海狸湖野餐
Lake is David Cross in real
湖是现实生活中的大卫·克罗斯，
life and the sun was setting and the
太阳正在落山，
mosquitoes were coming out
蚊子出来了
and I was thinking oh it's late you know
，我在想哦，已经晚了，你知道，
and
mosquitoes and we didn't bring spray
蚊子和 我们没有带喷雾，
and there was this folk dancing troop
有一个民间舞蹈队
practicing or a whole bunch of people I
在练习，或者一大群人，我
don't know what was going on it was like
不知道发生了什么，好像有
seemed like 200 people dancing in this
200 个人
concentric circles to different types of
随着不同类型的
Folk
民间
Music and I felt rushed and we went and
音乐在这个同心圆里跳舞，我觉得 匆匆忙忙，我们
got the picnic stuff and the cheese and
去拿了野餐的东西、奶酪和
all the bread and it was her Mission she
所有的面包，这是她的使命，她
she made it a point would go get this
明确表示要去拿这个，
and she wanted to do this
她想做这个，
and she went to find a spot on the hill
她去山上找一个地方，
and I went to the bathroom and in the
我去了 到了浴室，在
lodge and I came came out and I was
小屋里，我出来了，我朝她走去，
walking towards and I'm walking and and
我正在走，
and then I'm standing about couple
然后我站在距离
hundred feet from the hill and I'm
山大约几百英尺的地方，我
looking to see her and I see a DOT I see
想看看她，我看到一个点 我
a DOT on the hill and I see is that her
在山上看到一个点，我看到她
and I can see another little gray Dot
和我可以看到另一个小灰点
and there's a little blonde Dot and
，还有一个金色的小点，
there's a little gray Dot and the gray
还有一个灰色的小点，灰色的
Dot dot is rubble and the blonde dot is
点是瓦砾，金色的点是
her I see them and I have this
她，我看到了他们， 我有这种
feeling those are my
感觉，那些是我的
dots and uh they're so
点，呃，他们是如此
lonely they're
孤独，他们
孤独，我是
and who am I you
谁，你
know why does anybody trust me and they
知道为什么有人相信我，他们
see how [\h__\h] crazy I
看到我有多疯狂，
am I had the camera with me and I was
我带着相机，我
thought recently I was thinking I should
最近被认为是我 我当时想我应该
have filmed myself going closer to the
拍摄自己靠近这些
dots because I can't stop thinking about
点的镜头，因为我无法停止思考
that image and I went closer and I
那个图像，我走近了，我
stopped and I looked at it again to see
停下来，我再次看了看，发现
is that is that them and then kept
那就是它们，然后继续
walking and I got closer and then I saw
走，我走近了 然后我看到
the dot move a little bit and then she
那个点移动了一点，然后她
started
开始
waving the DOT started waving at
挥手，那个点开始向
me it's like a wide open space just
我挥手，就像一个广阔的开放空间，只是
emptiness this one person that this one
空虚，这个人，这个
person that means something to you how
人对你来说意味着什么，
could you be mean to that
你怎么能对那
person how could you be unkind to that
个人刻薄呢？ 你能对那个外国人不友善吗
person
GL
GL
thank Ral may we have the
谢谢拉尔，我们可以拥有
Rings congratulations
指环祝贺
n
n
right before the wedding we both forgave
就在婚礼之前我们都原谅了
each other it happened to both of us we
对方，这发生在我们俩身上，我们
didn't realize we were doing it it just
没有意识到我们在做 它就
kind of happened happened uh as we
这样发生了，呃，当我们
approached the day each each one of us
临近这一天时，我们每个人都
on our own made that decision to clear
自己做出决定，
everything away at General
在大赦中清除一切，
amnesty forgave each other for for
原谅彼此，为
anything for everything for whatever all
任何事，为一切，为所有
it and we started fresh this is the
一切，我们重新开始，这是
truth it it this is what
事实是，这就是
happened I'll never forget the night
发生的事情，我永远不会忘记
that Tony came home his eyes blazing and
托尼回家的那个晚上，他的眼睛闪闪发光，
telling us I'm in
告诉我们我
love my mind I whoever she is I hope
爱上了我的心，无论她是谁，我希望
she's in love with you
她爱你
too uh everybody knows we got a scare
也是，呃每个人都知道今年冬天我们受到了惊吓，
this winter my father got very sick and
我父亲病得很重，
uh he's better now much better and I
呃他现在好多了，我
know I know he used this wedding as a
知道我知道他以这场婚礼为
goal and uh now you got to find
目标，呃现在你必须找到
something else I know I know what that
别的东西我知道我知道什么 那
is they've already told me what that
就是他们已经告诉我那是什么了
is um
嗯
Al thanks for your
谢谢你的
patience um I love you and uh I believe
耐心嗯我爱你呃我
in you and uh let's have fun or die
相信你呃让我们玩得开心或死
trying
尝试
[音乐] ]
斯皮
hi natal how are you okay let's call to
嗨，你还好吗，让我们打电话
see how you are uh if you feel like
看看你怎么样，呃，如果你想
calling us we're at home doing
打电话给我们，我们在家里什么都不做，
nothing take
care
保重，
e
特别是